Thursday, August 25, 2011
reminder of a scorned heart
its funny how the last time i wrote in this journal i was just gettin into some new pussy n now this time i just got out some pussy. i got fucked over a lil bit last night with this young shorty kathy, just turned 21 colombian bitch. met her at the black n white festival, fucked the same day...lesson learned, no wifin in the cluuub! basically we were going hard for like 3 weeks n i know she had the case of the ex. i felt it as we communicated, she was always distant or something always seemed to be missin. but when we fucked, we FUCKED! greatest sex i had since...well, idk i have alot sex and smoke too much bud to remember LOL! but hands down she had the cakey, n a cute face. not even a dime but a solid 7.5 prolly. titties looked like flap jacks, but nice skin tone nonetheless. basically we made it official not even a week ago n she already relapsed on the ex cock. stright up dipped in the room as we spoke about shit. i tried to get her to stop so i could get a better understandng of what just happened, but after some thought on the subject i figured it out for myself.
the one thing i learned this week was that i still have the capacity to be faithful and love again. i tried with shorty, but in the end i was really trying for myself...prove to myself i can still "love" concretely. that guud shit.
my search for a "girlfriend" is ending now, idk even know if i was searchin but i dont plan on wifin' anyone up anytime soon. i need that me time, keep it 100 flow.
after she bounced i had one of my infamous high moment quotes.
"Isnt the first time and it wont be the last time. she was just a reminder of how it feels to be crushed. Be more mindful of the relationships i build with females. dont be heartless, but be straight up and real."
it came from the realization that if she didnt dip it woulda lead to deeper wounds, she did the right thing...
the one thing i learned this week was that i still have the capacity to be faithful and love again. i tried with shorty, but in the end i was really trying for myself...prove to myself i can still "love" concretely. that guud shit.
my search for a "girlfriend" is ending now, idk even know if i was searchin but i dont plan on wifin' anyone up anytime soon. i need that me time, keep it 100 flow.
after she bounced i had one of my infamous high moment quotes.
"Isnt the first time and it wont be the last time. she was just a reminder of how it feels to be crushed. Be more mindful of the relationships i build with females. dont be heartless, but be straight up and real."
it came from the realization that if she didnt dip it woulda lead to deeper wounds, she did the right thing...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Monday, April 14
I just decided today would be a good day to start my journal that id be writing in every day to document my life. i will not edit this journal because i want it to express my exact way of life at the moment.
time before today: dropped out of hunter, just been chillin at home most of the time, smokin alot of weed. stickball season started yesturday. me and joel play together on stem. im seein a therapist once a week. just got my manual camera a week ago. dark room with jen during the week.
today:
chilled at home basically all day. it was nice as fuck outside but noone was around so i couldnt get out and really enjoy the weather. i wanted to hit. yesturday i went 0 for 3. 1 ground out 1strike out and 1 lucky fly out. so i was kinda eager to take advantage of the weather. life sucks here sucks without money, cars, and available freinds. btw, i gotta get outta this house. mom is crampin my shit!
i got a date with this girl eric hooked me up with, on wednesday. i told her i was takin her to a met game so we will see how that goes. so far shes aight, jus waitin for the turnout on wednesday to know if its potential. her name is steph.
i just came back from the gym with jed like an hour ago. im out of shape these days, i gotta put some work in. i really wanna go campin this summer and jus be in good shape.
jus rolled a vanilla dutch master. oh yes
time before today: dropped out of hunter, just been chillin at home most of the time, smokin alot of weed. stickball season started yesturday. me and joel play together on stem. im seein a therapist once a week. just got my manual camera a week ago. dark room with jen during the week.
today:
chilled at home basically all day. it was nice as fuck outside but noone was around so i couldnt get out and really enjoy the weather. i wanted to hit. yesturday i went 0 for 3. 1 ground out 1strike out and 1 lucky fly out. so i was kinda eager to take advantage of the weather. life sucks here sucks without money, cars, and available freinds. btw, i gotta get outta this house. mom is crampin my shit!
i got a date with this girl eric hooked me up with, on wednesday. i told her i was takin her to a met game so we will see how that goes. so far shes aight, jus waitin for the turnout on wednesday to know if its potential. her name is steph.
i just came back from the gym with jed like an hour ago. im out of shape these days, i gotta put some work in. i really wanna go campin this summer and jus be in good shape.
jus rolled a vanilla dutch master. oh yes
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